From D Depths Of My Soul

Through d dark woods of life,I stumbled along,
Unaware of what fate held in store;
Unaware of d lurking dangers was I,yet
Fear of d unknown gripped my soul;
My mind,traitor dat it was,kept screaming 2 me:
"U r bt a slave in d hands of destiny!
Destined 2 b lost 4evr in d midst
Of dis un4giving gloom!"
And yet,hope still glowed inside my soul,
Giving me warmth in d cold numbness of doom,
4 I had 4 company,my 1 true friend:
My heart,which whispered back 2 me
Wid every beat-dat life had in store
4 me,surprises beyond my wildest dreamz!
Like a drowning man,clutching at straw,
I checked 4 dem at every bend,
And yet,in spite of such meticulous care,I
Could find no blossom,in d withered garden of existence!
I cursed my heart,more bitter foe it seemed
Than my mind-4 it taught me 2 hope,
As d pain of shattered hope is beyond
What a frail human soul can endure!
Bt then:
In d midst of winter,in d depths of snow,
D fragrance of blossom warmed my heart,
Truly amazed,was I ,at dis sudden change
4 d woods no longer seemed unfriendly 2 me.
Basked in d warmth of moonbeams,dey seemed
So full of life,just like d soft touch of grass kissin my feet!
I knew not,wat ws dis sudden change-
It ws of a sort never xperiencd b4!
And yet ,why did it seem so familiar 2 me-
As if I had waited 4 centuries
4 d arrival of dis untimely spring
In my step,in my soul?
The fire still burned,bright as ever,
Even engulfing my rational mind
In its all-pervading warmth.
And like 2 Ancient Man,in d early days,
Once again,d Fire had taught a lesson-
Dat 2 lose hope was d biggest crime,4
At d end of every scary tunnel,
Awaitin our arrival,there's always light.

Collecting MyThoughts

Been a long time since I last managed 2 put up a post!Not dat 'hav been short of thoughts,but they were either of 2 private a nature,or I have been simply 2 busy(or 2 lazy,watevr!).
Its been a whirlwind,really.d last 2 months that is.on one side,there ws d sudden avalanche of deadlines,on d othr,d exhilarating experience of dealing wid a whole gamut of emotions I had never handled b4.Tough,huh?It's only nw dat hav managed 2 get some sort of spare time 2 collect my thoughts a bit.and organize them. And as always,since I hav got some time 2 spare,I have started having self doubts.About a few decisions 'hav taken lately.Apparently hasty ones,bt actually well thought out.and nw am wondering whether they were a bit 2 hasty.Am I really cut out 4 this.I wonder.Or am I making 1 big mistake?Its an important question really,4 it doesnt concern only me.I like 2 think I made d correct decision,bt u knw,idle mind is d devil's workshop!So here I am,back 2 square one.
Why am I so unsure of myself,I wonder.Even regardin somethin as big as this.Just keep havin nagging doubts that somethings not right somewhere.Mayb it's stalling somewhere.Not a good sign really,so early in2 it.Should I hav waited longer?Bt at dat time,it seemed perfectly all right.And 2 tell d truth.it still seems so,quite often.Specially when I am alone with my dreamz,And they say,dreams reflect ur subconscious thoughts.I hope they do.Bt sometimes,just sometimes,I do wonder,Whether am a loner.and always meant 2 b that way.Whether am bound 2 create problems,both 4 me as well as 4 others,when I try 2 b otherwise.D thought frightens me.Really frightens me.Hope 2 God am wrong.U knw.still am unable 2 understand myself!